Chasing Dawn

Is to be with one person, and be happy.

For the rest of our lifes.

Is that to much to ask?

I am so fucked.

I literally just ruined my life. 

I take that back.

Im actually pretty bored right now.

There is nothing to do here. 

I’m good :)

not even going to worry about it. 

Bright purple

babyygotback:

I don’t wanna feel the way that I do.
I just wanna be right here with you.
I don’t wanna see, see us apart.

I will never be afraid again
I will keep on fighting till the end
I can walk on water
I can fly
I will keep on fighting till I die.

So I’ve been alone in my room the majority of today and yesterday. There is a huge pool party going on in my complex, and I haven’t even bothered to check it out. Big parties and drinking really isn’t my thing. Its lonely here and its only been a few days, 11 more months until I can even think about leaving. Part of me is saying ” Tom you tried, go home.” But that is just part of me, I know in my heart I need to stay here as long as it takes and fight harder.

I don’t want to college life, I want our life.

Turns out just being here isn’t enough to make things right, its going to take time but I am determined.

Darling,

Te quiero.

I’m walking the road we built together- alone; but thats okay, for now. I can handle it by myself as long as I know that the same road leads to you in the end. 

I wish I could explain to you all what I am feeling right now.

Doing this no matter what it takes.

After today if you ever say I don’t love you or didn’t try I’m going to just die. I’m not even going to post all the shit that’s happened to me today, I’m going to tell you in person. This is chain of eventsis just insane….

About 20 more to go. I’m trying to just do this straight through. Entering new york now.

Last full day in MA.

Oh god, I’m nervous.

On the road in 25 hours.

I’m so scared that I’m to late, that ill get there and you’ve found someone else….I’m trying so hard to show you I’ve changed.

I’m exausted, and I have another long day tomorrow. Up early to finish packing, then I have work until 8, home for a 3 hour nap and then I leave.

Goodnight, te quiero me corazon

Leaving Monday at midnight. Tomorrow is my last day here in MA.

Monday night around midnight.

its a 24 hour drive soooooo that means caffeine pills, coffee, energy drinks, and cigs to keep me awake. 

 

this is crazy and stupid.

but soooooo worth it if everything works out..

1 more day here. 

ALright, okay, i got this. 

driving down to florida sunday morning I think,

this is good. 

this looks hopeful, but the only way I can make it down to Florida in time is to take out student loans

Yay me starting my life $50,000 in debt.

$25,000 each year until I get my associates degree. That covers my apartment and tuition.


THEN

I have to get my bachelors at another school which meeeeeans more loans!

ugh.

Florida soon though, i really hope this is all worth it and everything works out. I’m literally giving it everything I have

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