Chasing Dawn

it dawns on me and I say,

” I never realized how much she means to me, I love her.”

And it feels amazing, and every time it happens it blows my mind that I can actually love you MORE than I already do.

I mean damn….I fucked up.

I love you.

Pills!

I’m WIRED!

Top of the motherfuckin world right now.

3 states down

Only a few more to go comon!

Car is gassed up, this will be a long drive

says I grew up to fast,

I think I didn’t grow up fast enough- I wouldn’t have lost “her” if I was really so mature.

I’ve had plenty of years to wild out and be a kid,

To get in trouble, and party, but I let those pass peacefully and without any of that.

But the time still comes where I need to grow some balls and be a better man. 

Yeah, thats it- say goodbye to the kid. He’s gone;

I’m going to work to be the man I always told myself I would be.  

I’m growing up and this life I’m choosing will be a crazy journey to do alone but it has to be done.  

I’m nervous, and scared beyond belief- I know there will be days where I cant find food to eat, and work will be scarce.

But I’m throwing myself into the unknown for a reason- and a noble reason that is.  

Time to grow up Tom.

Now that you’ve found your Raison D’etre.



Air.

Apartment hunting all day.

I go hard

That the severity of what I’m doing with my life just dawned on me.

I’m scared out of my mind, and I don’t even know how I’m going to support myself.

Moving 1300 miles from home, alone. With hardley enough money to do so.

I am litterally petrified of these next 2-3 weeks.

Was probably in my top 10 best days ever.

:)

I got accepted to a college in florida!

equip0ise:

where i am so sad and so terrified, that i wont even speak. 

I wont disappoint you.

 

that one day things will go back to normal, and I can make up for hurting you.


The silence is killing me, I’m getting off tumblr for now,

please text me,

you know who you are.  

To move out of here. 

Just a little while longer.  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S8le-xG45JI

I just want to hear you say hello. I miss your voice.

I love you.